Linkin Park

E uns dias atrás estressei com minha playlist do cel e decidi trocar as músicas. Dentre as "novas" músicas, ativei o momento nostalgia e enfiei Linkin Park no celular.

A questão é que na época em que eu ouvia Linkin Park meu inglês era mais cu do que hoje. E eu não cheguei a checar todas as letras de todas as músicas cujo som eu curtisse. Em geral, eu só curtia o som das músicas deles. E dessa vez eu decidi observar as letras, e acabei descobrindo algumas coisas legais que refletem muito o que eu sou hoje. Por mais que eu fosse adolescente na época em que essas músicas foram lançadas, eu não penso que a Mariana daquela época realmente pudesse se descrever usando alguma das letras deles. Ou é simplesmente que só hoje eu cheguei na adolescência. =/

Given up é meio que minha descrição nowadays.

Principalmente "I'm my own worst enemy...". Eu sei disso, mas simplesmente saber disso não ajuda muito a resolver o problema.

Wake in a sweat again
Another day's been laid to waste
In my disgrace
Stuck in my head again
Feels like I'll never leave this place
There's no escape
I'm my own worst enemy

I've given up, I'm sick of feeling
Is there nothing you can say?
Take this all away, I'm suffocating
Tell me what the fuck is wrong with me

I don't know what to take
Thought I was focused, but I'm scared
I'm not prepared
I hyperventilane
Looking for help, somehow, somewhere
And no one cares
I'm my own worst enemy

I've given up, I'm sick of feeling
Is there nothing you can say?
Take this all away, I'm suffocating
Tell me what the fuck is wrong with me

God!!!
Put me out of my misery!
Put me out of my misery!
Put me out of my...
Put me out of my fuckin misery!

I've given up, I'm sick of feeling
Is there nothing you can say?
Take this all away, I'm suffocating
Tell me what the fuck is wrong with me


Easier to run também fala para mim.

Trecho principal: "If I could change, I would / Take back the pain, I would"

It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone

Something has been taken from deep inside of me
The secret I've kept locked away
No one can ever see
Wounds so deep they never show
They never go away
Like moving pictures in my head
For years and years they've played

If I could change, I would
Take back the pain, I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made, I would
If I could stand up and take the blame, I would
If I could take all the shame to the grave, I would


Sometimes I remember the darkness of my past
Bringing back these memories
I wish I didn't have
Sometimes I think of letting go
And never looking back
And never moving forward
So there'd never be a past

Just washing it aside
All of the helplessness inside
Pretending I don't feel misplaced
It's so much simpler than change

E, por fim, a últia dessa leva é Somewhere I belong. " I wanna heal... /And I will never feel anything else / Until my wounds are healed"

When this began
I had nothing to say
And I get lost in the nothingness inside of me
I was confused
And I let it all out to find
That I'm not the only person with these things in mind
Inside of me
But all the vacancy the words revealed
Is the only real thing that I've got left to feel
Nothing to lose
Just stuck, hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own

I wanna heal, I wanna feel
What I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I've held so long
Erase all the pain till it's gone
I wanna heal, I wanna feel
Like I'm close to something real
I wanna find something I've wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

And I've got nothing to say
I can't believe I didn't fall right down on my face
I was confused
Looking everywhere only to find
That it's not the way I had imagined it all in my mind
So what am I?
What do I have but negativity?
'Cause I can't justify the way, everyone is looking at me
Nothing to lose
Nothing to gain, hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own

I will never know myself until I do this on my own
And I will never feel anything else
Until my wounds are healed
I will never be anything 'till I break away from me
I will break away, I'll find myself today